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Saturday, November 26, 2011

Once again, I am experience another sleepless night so I came back here =).

Looking back at my old posts, I can really see that times have really changed a lot.

From my very first posts I can really see the extend of the change from secondary school life to polytechnic life. Its so much more different, so much more diverse. We get a lot more freedom in Poly, and I think that's what changes the game so much. The freedom is both really satisfying and scary at the same time. Kinda like a car with more grip, where u can enter a corner with much higher speeds (that's good) but at the same time it scares a person shitless (no that's bad).

For some reason now I am actually beginning to miss my secondary school, after seeing all my juniors taking their O lvls, going to prom, graduating.... It makes me feel rather... senior... It brings back all the memories, both good and bad. I sorta want them all back. But at the same time, I want to start anew with fresh people, create a new image, and toss the old me out of the window. So far its been weird, with this little rat that is annoying the heck out of everyone and the other wannabe professor sitting in another corner thinking about molecules and trying to think of how everything works. Its not easy balancing them, as currently, the annoying rat is dropping deuces all over the professor like he isnt there. That is to change now. Being fun could be good for the 1st part of everything. But like the universe, everything gradually has to change to a new equilibrium. As values change, others will have to follow as well. BUT the equation always remains the same. Currently, its been a struggle to find that balance. Its all so new, so confusing... The human mentality is really hard to figure out, as every one is so different. To find the perfect balance is like trying to find the most condensed solid solution and to fit it into a filter medium of nanometre scaled apertures. Its just so difficult. In Sec sch, everything was simple, as I just pretty much didnt quite care about anything. It was always a lead foot on a gas pedal, just charging ahead and ignoring anything which I ran into. But its all different now. These obstacles are GIGANTIC! If I were to run into one, it will certainly crush me like a tin can. So far I've been lucky, the only ones i've ran into are just minor bumps or just barrels. But up ahead, it seems like its a dead end, and I need go of the beaten track and re-adjust myself. Right now everything about me is off balanced. I have to begin to take things more seriously, see opportunites which I had never seen before. I need more grip. More flexibility and quicker reaction times. I've always prided that intelligence is about the ability to form relations from one thing to another to form a dense network of one giant chapter of information. However, I've found out in poly that I do not have that ability. I am still a guy with a lead foot who cannot try to think out of the box and think of things differently. Intelligence is never about how much you can memorise a chapter or about how you can memorise formulas. Its always about the ability of infering what you know and from there find the answer to all your questions. That's how it is supposed to be, all great characters of history have that noble ability to form relations from one subject to another. This skill I believe is difficult to harness, I've been trying to do this for an extremely long time with a lot of effort, but it just doesnt work. I always end up relying on teachers or books or google. This is especially for mathematics, the most effective way of gauging a person's intelligence. I cannot find answers. Then again, the human mind solely learns from experiences and lessons and never had thought of something by itself. All it ever does is to see, record and store. Nothing else. If the information is needed again, the brain simply copies it all over again and reproduces it. I don't like that. There has to be a way around this. Why was it that people of the past could all do it but the average people like me cannot? What is it that I am lacking? I do not understand. Nothing really makes sense right now. The world is such a alien place now. Its all so complex. So many unknowns. How the heck is one supposed to find answers like this?

Now looking back at this paragraph, I have no idea how i got from looking at my juniors can run on and become a topic on the human mentality. Guess I was just ranting. Oh wells.

Done.

Cheuck Left The Car Lot at 3:47 AM

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Friday, April 22, 2011

Finally, the 6 months long stoning period has ended and the beginning of my poly life has started ( last week ). Having to go back to study - mode is kinda... well hard, considering that nothing much has been done in my 6 months...

Well lets start with my orientation programme =)

Day 1

Me, Sing Yuan and WeiLiang met at Bedok MRT at 1130 (i think) as we had the awesome privilege of having to report to school at 1230. On the way there, we talked about many things. We talked about how nervous we were about our 1st day of school, and that if we were ever to have a person named Henry ( Henry = 5 X Randy ) in our class, we will all die a terrible death. When we got off at Dover, We met Faizul, Natalie, and Sofia. It was nice to see more familiar faces as I was worried of being alone in the school. Then just beside them was Henry, who walked over to me and decided to give me a seizure.... Anyways, we then went on to register. After that, SP just begin to suck to me all the sudden... The students "helpers" there were honestly just statues there. The entire convention centre was as packed as packed stuff and the helpers there just stood there and did nothing to organise or help the students find their places... Till I finally realised that we had to queue to go to a big room full of seats (auditorium). There, we had a loong talk about life, GPA, and crap. I got bored and went to stoning - mode. After that, we were separated to our classes and we met one of our lecturers, Ms Katrina Yang. She kinda scared me... She was exactly thee same as Mrs Kow! She is just scary, like a sadistic kind of scary! Thank god that was not my private lecturer, as she was Sing Yuan's =). Then my class on the 1st day can be described as the quietest, most awkward class ever to have existed at that moment of time. We said nothing for 2 hours straight. Thats how strange it was there. But it will get better =) more on that later.

Day 2

Meet up with Sing yuan and weiliang... bla bla bla... talk about stuff.... bla bla bla... and we stopped at dover. In the 2nd day, we assembled in MLT 1 where we were supposed to have an induction programme and ice breakers for my class. Well... It went well, as on that day i learnt 1 important thing. 1st impressions are always wrong. There were people who just look like complete jerks who actually are really nice people. Soon my classmates stated to grow on me as I began to bond with them more. After our induction thingy, we had a interclass game of dog and bone. That game has taught me another important lesson. I shall call it the innocence theory. This is how it goes : If one shall look like an innocent being who is peaceful and tranquil, others will not see the being as a threat AT ALL. This theory is inspired by the epitome of innocence, the one and only, Lau Wei Liang. This is how it went. We were in 2 rows ( like any other dog & bone game) 2 numbers were called, one of which was wei liang's ( mind u, he was my enemy ). As the 3 people charged for the "bone", the innocent man was at the back lines, holding his hands together, looking hella innocent, thus my classmated naturally took it that he wasnt a threat. However, their assumption was soon turned against them as Wei Liang has actaully went to ninja school when he was 3 years old, so as my classmates's back was facing him, with a swift move, he snatched the "bone" between the opponent's legs while the 3 others stood mouth agape as the innocent ninja did scored one for his class. Totally unexpected. So yea that was day 2 where i found out that weiliang was a ninja.
Anyways, I now find my class awesome =D but not as awesome as 4D yet tho...

Day 3

I kinda forgot....... I think it was boring

Day 4

FLAG DAY!!!

That morning i woke up feeling powerful, powerful with the strength fueled by singaporeans as they shall hold hands and help the needy. Nah I'm just kidding, i just woke up early that day. This day has many of my firsts, as it was the 1st time i am gonna sell stickers for charity, 1st time i helped SP do a flag day, 1st time actually doing a flag day, 1st time having red bull, 1st time going completely nuts. More on that later

So my entire class was assigned to Aljunied to sell our soon to be famous red stickers. At 8am, i arrived and i saw SP students EVERYWHERE. This is partly due to 19000+ students spread all over Singapore to get donations. So at aljunied station a lone, at least 30- 50 students are there. So I met with my classmates, then Wei Liang, and then Sing Yuan. So with out awesome, manly trio at work, we started to work. We were collecting cash really quickly! Or at least one of us was.... Care to guess who? If u guessed wei liang, then you are absolutely correct! He literally seduces the public with his innocence!!! Whenever I ask for a donation, i get rejected, but as for him, they are just hypnotised by him! 2 people donated $10 notes to him O_O. So With him doing that well, i decided to have a lesson or two about the art of innocence from him. So by observing his ever move, I have come out with a condensed set of rukes which one must follow to perfect the art of innocence

1. When talking, do speak excessively politely
2. When walking to someone to ask for a donation, don't walk, but bounce towards them with eagerness ( gets them everytime )
3. When holding the can whilst idling, ALWAYS AND ALWAYS hold it with both hands and keep the can at your abdomen. It makes you look innocent
4. When ever you talk, besides being polite, also talk with happiness in your tone and smile
5. And this is the most important, if your height is above 163cm, Then I'm sorry, you have grown pass the innocence threshold... your physique cannot perform the delicate art of innocence.

With my newly acquired skills, I set off to help save the needy. And what did you know! It didnt exactly work... the bouncing thing ( rule 2 ) was just awkward and I couldnt exactly pull it off like a weiliang... Oh well...

Anywho, we travelled from aljunied to tampines by train, and we walked to simei, where we visited weiliang's old house. And as usual, he BOUNCED with excitement and exclaimed with his usual " YAY ". After that, we went back to SP where we tabulated our results for the day. I have gotten $27.45, Sing Yuan gotten $9. something and Weiliang with his charm earned him $ 80+. I have to say tho that he Ksed me a lot =). We were promised a good party after our tough day, and so i thought i could stay for a while for the party, which turned out to be excessive party rocking. I met up with my camp friends and we began to create dance floors for the masses. Soon we were dancing and sweating and having a helluva time =D. That is, until the seniors came along and crashed it-.-

Disclaimer: My fingers are pretty busted up right now after typing all these, so i am just gonna stop here.

Time is not early, I must stop pen now, next time then talk bye!

Cheuck Left The Car Lot at 12:36 AM

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Friday, March 25, 2011

I can't sleep now, so I guess I'll talk about boring stuff here =)

So class, I shall talk to you all about my view on how the universe works.

Lets all begin from the basics. The basic building blocks of everything we see and know. I believe that the universe is nothing more than a big group of particles. We can even relate them as just sub atomic balls bouncing around the universe. The Universe truly is a strange place, as we can see that in this big group of particles, life is present. To us, the universe is truly a spectacle to behold, with beautiful galaxies and systems that take our breathe away every time we see these majestic celestial objects. To the universe however, its just a giant group of particles held close together by their own gravity, and moving according to the laws of physics. Thus beauty I feel is nothing to the universe.

How that the basics are covered, I shall talk about my doubts to how people work. Is it true that our feelings are truly unique and special? I feel not. Our mind I think is governed mainly by our subconscious. If we were to look at all the things we do, it all boils down to the same thing, an easier life. Feelings are always said as a complex thing to describe, but i feel its not. Our minds are always really easily controlled by our surroundings. Our moods play a very important role in this. Music for one can easily manipulate our thoughts, often sending us into a slight trance evertime its played. Thus i think that our feelings are nothing more than a mixture of hormones which our bodies send our in different situations, thus affecting our mood. We can see this manipulation of our way of thinking everywhere, sending out bodies into trances and causing us to change our mindsets. Adverts especially has a lot of these. Their smart method of camera skills, choice of music, etc all make a very wonderful experience, as they manipulate our thoughts to think that their products are a cut above the rest. So are we really in full control of our minds? Honestly, I think not. But still emotions play in important role in everything

Next I shall talk about the universe as whole. The universe described in general relativity can be seen as a sheet, where the objects with more mass make a larger dimple into the sheet. Everything that has mass makes a dimple on the fabric of the universe and causes it to expand ever so slightly in it. If we were to use this to see how gravity works, we can see that the more massive object with the larger making the larger "dimple" or depression in the fabric of space will cause the other objects to fall into it, thus, gravity.

The same thing can also be seen in time, where time slows down in a more massive object. We can also have a simple representation for this. Much like space, time is also a sheet, just that there are grids drawn onto it, and that the sheet is infinitely long and is constantly moving in one direction in a uniform speed. Now, imagine if we were to stretch the sheet, the distance between the two ends in a grid will be separated further apart. Thus if a more massive object were to be on this sheet, we can see that the depression that it makes on the sheet will cause the grid on the sheet to be more distant from one another, thus time slows down. Using the representation, we can see this as an object causing a dimple on the sheet and stretching the fabric, and since the grid is stretched longer relatively to the other grids on the sheet, it takes a longer time to clear a point. Thus time is longer. Prove, the satelites outside of earth experience time faster than that of earth.

Ok, I'm done with spouting all my nonsense out =) have fun trying to understand all this =D ( that means you kyanta )

Cheuck Left The Car Lot at 12:21 AM

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Sunday, March 20, 2011

Well back to the old page... It has been a while since I've been here. Reading back on the posts which I've made in '09, it really makes me wonder how fast time does fly. All the highlights of my 09' life seemed just like yesterday.. Anyway, since I'm here already, might as well post something for the sake of it. I only remember some fragments, so whatever i remember i'll put it down.

January 2010